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I Can’t Sleep
I can’t sleep.
So here I sit.
What else can I do? I’ve tried magnesium. You know, that powdered drink that you mix with water or juice? It used to make me sleepy but not tonight.
I’ve taken Valerian Root which typically has a very relaxing almost sedative effect. Not tonight.
Sometimes Melatonin with L-Theanine does the trick, but I try not to use it much. I’ve read that it can be habit-forming.
I played the Bible app on my phone. It had a nice soothing voice reading to me for 30 minutes. That didn’t help tonight but I did learn more about Moses and “let my people go.”
Laying in bed trying to sleep is maddening.
My brain just won’t shut down. It’s going 90 miles a minute. Am I alone in this plight? I mean, for real – my thoughts are jumping from the list of things I need to do, to thinking about whether or not it is going to rain tomorrow. I thought about walking my dogs and how can I do that if it rains and that took me to an umbrella and how impossible it would be to use an umbrella and walk three dogs. It would be a nice long walk to the dog park but I don’t think my little dog could make it that far and I’m not going to carry him.
Seriously? I can’t sleep!
What keeps people from being able to get to sleep? There are many reasons why someone like me can’t get a good night’s rest:
- Money or lack thereof
- Lack of exercise
- The weather
- And God only knows what else!
In my case, I think the reason why I can’t sleep, has to do with so much on my mind. I’m thinking about my daughters who are both in college. I pray for them daily and worry about them constantly. My youngest is on the Spectrum and that is always plaguing my thoughts. My oldest is a stressed-out nursing student who calls me crying while on her way to work, school, or clinical. A mother never stops being a mom, no matter how old the kids get.
Another reason why I can’t sleep has to do with money. Can I make enough money to support myself and my daughter? Will I have enough income to pay the mortgage? What if I need a third or fourth job? Can someone who is on the Spectrum graduate from college and find gainful employment?
Oh my gosh! What is Wrong with Me?
Now I’m hungry.
I was all set to go to bed. If my friends knew I was up at 11 pm. They’d be calling an ambulance because something must be wrong with me. I’m the one who goes to bed by 8. If I’m up at 9 it’s because I was picking up my kid from karate. Any later than that, I must be sick. What is wrong with me? Am I alone?
Nope, I am not alone.
According to Consumer Reports, “an estimated 164 million Americans—struggled with sleep at least once a week.”(https://www.consumerreports.org/sleep/why-americans-cant-sleep/)
Are you one of them? Could we be in the same boat? Do you think that military wives get less sleep than other wives? Or do mothers get the least amount of sleep of all?
Can you help me out by participating in the conversation in the FB group? https://www.facebook.com/groups/militarywivesgetupandgetgoing
Meanwhile – I’m going to try lavender and Peaceful Sleep aromatherapy in the diffuser, a rain/thunderstorm app on my phone, and just good old fashioned will power. But first, a piece of toast.